I'm warning you this post is for the sake of rambling about stuff that is currently on my mind lol.
Let the ovulation testing commence!! AF
has left the building and hopefully within the next week I will know
about how my ovulation is going to work. Then BD! I know its most
likely going to take more than one month, and I'm perfectly ok with
that. I just am glad I can finally get this moving. I have to remind
myself if not this month then there's always next month.
The money factor is being fixed very
quickly, and I'm breathing sighs of relief left and right. I'm trying
to not get my hopes up too high, but I honestly think this is my year
to become a mommy. It just feels right. DD is still being possibly
the best partner in crime I could've asked for. I'm so pleased with
him as my choice. My grades are good, I'm making a list of job
prospects because I will have a car in just over a week (weather
permitting the search of course), and then I can breathe even more
freely. I'm so thankful that everything seems to be falling into
place for me. I'm just as thankful that its falling into place for my
girlie. I think I'm as excited for her to be a mom as I am for myself
to be one.
For me the only thing left to weigh is
childcare. I don't necessarily trust anyone with the care of my
future child, but for the sake of the single mom thing I'm going to
have to come to a decision on it. My choices will be hire a
babysitter to care for my child in my home, or trust a daycare. If a
daycare is a good one, it can be a great way for children to be
socialized and start learning when you can't be there. If they
aren't good, well, you know the horror stories. On that same note,
babysitters with no supervision could also be a nightmare. I'm almost
certain that scares me more that there would be no witnesses if
something went wrong. If I got lucky to find someone I trusted it
would of course seem more logical to pay a young person a little
money to help me out and in turn help them build a resume, then to
pay a few hundred a week to strangers who may or may not have had
background checks that I feel give enough information. At least this
way I'm in control of that.
Oy see, I'm already a mom and I'm not
even knocked up yet! I just wanted to get that thought process out
there. If you choose to be a single mom you have to get over your
dreams of staying home with your little lovely, at least until you
can work from home or own your own business complete with on site
daycare. That is of course my ultimate goal and wish, but for now I'm
going to have to weigh the afore mentioned options. I am quite happy
that this is my biggest stresser right now, seeing as how its
probably about a year or more away from being an immediate factor. I
know I have time to make decisions like that, its honestly kinda fun
for it to be something I'm actually looking into and doing research
on. I'm very much looking forward to this. First thing is first,
gotta get that BFP!
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